He Had Been in Church for 18 Years—but Didn’t Know God-

For years, Alex Horton described himself as a chameleon. He adapted to whoever was around him because he didn’t know who he really was.

His earliest understanding of Christianity was rooted more in fear than love. He initially turned to Jesus for the wrong reasons, then walked away when those reasons disappeared. Meanwhile, isolation, bullying, depression, anxiety, and PTSD led Alex into several moments of suicidal desperation.

In this deeply honest conversation, Alex shares what happened during one of his darkest nights, how a friend helped him receive the care he needed, and why Romans 5:8 finally helped him understand the love of Jesus.

Now 21, Alex serves in youth and young-adult ministry, leads The Heart of What We Believe, hosts a podcast, and is pursuing a religious studies degree. His testimony is about moving from fear to love, from wandering to purpose, and from changing himself to fit every room toward discovering his identity in Christ.

Connect with Alex:

Website: https://www.theheartofwhatwebelieve.org/

Email: pastor_horton@outlook.com

Book: From Wandering to Walking

Content note: This episode includes a non-graphic discussion of suicidal thoughts and self-harm. In the United States, call or text 988 or visit https://988lifeline.org/ for immediate emotional support.